productivity level = nil

Nil: zip, zero, zilch.

- thats what i've accomplished today.

Ive been home 2 hours - 2 hours that I've spent shushing, rocking, feeding, putting down thinking shes asleep and picking right back up. 

My house is a disaster. My hair is even worse and I havent showered or put on decent clothes. Did I mention its almost 1pm?

I just want to clean the house & make it smell good again ... like it did when I was pregnant and nesting like crazy. I want my husband to come home and think I've done well at this new job of mine. I, myself, want to feel like I'm good at it.

But I can't because my baby is miserable. Shes been miserable for the past 5 days - but usually only in the evening. She cries as if she thinks she's been left in the care of the wrong people. She cries as if I am absolutely clueless at meeting her needs.

oh wow - look at that. I just accomplished somthin' ! a blog entry. 

Guess I better go shower now too!!