Zombie-land

Im living somewhere in an alternate reality - almost a zombie-like state - where your brain goes into auto-pilot. Im absolutely useless most days when it comes to anything I used to be perfectly capable of; paying bills, remembering things, holding a CONVERSATION. My main concerns are to not lose a child or my sanity completely. (as if these are uncharted waters right??) Most days Im covered in baby spit up or projectile poo. Im perpetually sweating - either from the milk production or trying to keep my germy 20 mos old from coughing on my newborn, Im not sure.

I remember when the Pediatrician told me my only goal the first year with 2 under 2 should be to survive. Ha. If only I had known then that he wasnt joking.

I checked in with mommy-friends and was assured that around 2-3 weeks you start feeling normal again. Im starting the countdown and hoping to be back to semi-normal in about 3 days ... Give or take a year.